I Can't Help

When I said "I have enough" eventually I didn't mean that at all because after that something happened for the very first time. He confessed his heart to me even though words related to love sound like another cliche to my ears nowadays but the heart  of mine which had been longing for so long couldn't deny the temptation, the love that might cause another pain.

Just like another boy, all that he could gurantee was promises. Promise not to leave, promise to keep this thing works out. I'm fine with that even though I'd rather believe that promises are made to be broken, I too believe that no matter how nice people is, they would leave sometimes someday and forgot all those shit they had given.

But people is vulnerable when they in love and I agree. Everything that I had believed for the very first time now seem to blur. The fact that one day he would get bored and left is not scary at all compare to the fact that I might not feel the way I feel now is scarier.

I feel really stupid to fall even deeper when I'm a believer of people would walk out of your life. I feel more like an idiot to stay, to experience this when I believe there'll be a moment when I cry myself to sleep for someone whom I fall for eventually have enough of me. But I really don't know how to stop. I can't help but fall.