December 29, 2011

“Just cause you’re hurt doesn’t mean you’re broken.”

There is a difference between being hurt and broken.  You may be legitimately hurt – physically, emotionally, psychologically, relationally, or financially.  But stay the course.
You’re not broken.  You can succeed.

An Untold Mind For My Dad

Here is some of untold mind I never had enough gut to say. I always afraid to speak out what my heart feels but I guess I have to say it right now or I’ll never have the chance.

It’s been two years since my mom’s death and I never say that I am really sad about it or sad maybe never describe how I feel, maybe broken is the right word. You know Mother always takes the important part of child’s life. She’s probably the sun of every child’s solar system and who knew I lost my sun in 2009. I was really confuse. I didn’t know what to do and I obviously did not know how i’m gonna survive without my mom. Since that day I lost my way and my days were really hard.

With a grieving dad who needs to be take care of, I’ve been hiding my sadness for a long time. I didn’t learn how to share my sorrow but  I learned how to survive in the middle of the storm. Because I don’t wanna make my dad’s condition worse. So I always put that ‘mask’ on to manipulate the real feel but honestly, I am really broken.

To that, I am really sorry. I always want to say that i’m as sad as him but on the other hand I chose to lie and pretend that I’m okay with it. I also want to say sorry about everything. I haven’t made him proud of me. All Im doing is disappoint him.

I don’t have anything that I’m good at. Even though I’m going to the one of the greatest school in town but I’m an average student there. The high school life is taking over me. It’s changing me and I’m afraid to change because I don’t know what I'm gonna be after that. No mother, no sharing. Don’t tell me to share this insecurities with my dad. He will never understand because he also trying to distract his own sorrow or telling this to my sister. It will be...a little bit corny.

I wish my dad read this and would understand my condition because while I’m growing up, and so is my luggage.

December 24, 2011

Just Two Wishes

Everything has an end. That's what I heard and so does this year.
Even though I have this freak phobia—afraid of an end—but I have to face that the end is gonna come. Soon.
Of course I have a lot of wishes but I want God to be fair with me. I want him to replace my sorrow with the greatest happiness. I have been waiting those cheerful moment. I wanna have my creepy smile back on my face.  I also want God to guide me to be a better person. I wanna be better !

December 19, 2011

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Here is the song that never gets old and never be forgotten. You can hear from the intro, the melody of the guitar makes you drown into the next part of the song. I never get bored by this song, How would I be? The lead singer got me melting right away. His voice and his song are brilliant and for those galau-junkie, this band can be your number one now.

Ed Sheeran - Lego House

I know I know you feel shocked after seeing the thumbnail but the name that pops up in your head is not the real singer !!! Rupert Grint was only the big fan of Ed Sheeran. Try to listen to the song, it's not a waste of time, I promise ;)

December 16, 2011

2011 MTV Video Music Awards Winners

Adele and Lady Gaga win big at this presticious award and the Video of The year went to Katy Perry, "Firework"

Here is the winner list

Tyler, The Creator, “Yonkers”
Katy Perry featuring Kanye West, “E.T.”
Foo Fighters, “Walk”
Lady Gaga, “Born This Way”
Adele, “Rolling in the Deep” (Director: Sam Brown)
Katy Perry featuring Kanye West, “E.T.”
Adele, “Rolling in the Deep”
Adele, “Rolling in the Deep”

December 15, 2011

Paramore : The Singles Club

Been busy this week. A lot things going on but I'm here to post a good news.
Paramore, the eighth wonders of the world, on October 11, 2011, Paramore announced that they will be releasing three new singles over the next three months until the end of 2011, with a single per month. They has set up the "Singles Club" on their site. Those three new diamonds can only be purchased on their website and not be sold on iTunes or in stores.

A song called "Renegade", premiered the day of the announcement, with "Hello Cold World" to follow on November 7 and "In the Mourning" on December 5.

I already have some of the songs. If you want a free download link, just click on the title.
I hope it helps :)) xoxoxo

December 14, 2011

December 11, 2011

mmm nothing: this is for Laksita Taffara Mahdy

mmm nothing: this is for Laksita Taffara Mahdy: happy birthday to you ma beb :3333 wish nothing but the besttt!!!!!!!!!! (it should be post on saturday dec, 10) hehe kinda late but happy birthday babygirl :**

What Do I Do ?

what do i have to do to make you understand and stop whatever you do?

December 10, 2011

I Dont Know What to Describe O.O

Think First Before Judging


Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go


You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye


You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

December 09, 2011

Me In The Lyric

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
"You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive"
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
"And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day"

Dont Be Nice to Me !

I'm out of love but I can't forget the past. You put that smile everytime I come around like you had loved me in the past. Don't put that smile  if the fact is you don't like me. Hate me if you do hate me. Dont look if you dont want to see. Just dont be nice to me.

December 07, 2011

Your Own Soundtrack

Do you like watching  movie? Like Hollywood movie kinda thing? And you want to be just like in the movie, have your own track for some of your special moment. Well I have some good sugestions for you. The soundtrack that you can hear whenever you get the feeling like one of those scene in the movie

The sweet moments when you fall deeply in love with someone need some good song.
I think you should download these tracks :
  1. Melee - Built to Last
  2. Bruno Mars feat Natasha Bediengfield ( i dont know how to spell her name) - Again
  3. Beautiful Girl - Christian Bautista or you can download the original version by Jose Mari Chan
  4. Katy Perry - Teenage Dream
  5. The Fray - Never Say Never
  6. David Archuleta - Everything And More
  7. Paramore - The Only Exception
  8. Marianas Trench - Good to You
  9. Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
  10. Use Somebody - Pixie Lott Version or you can download the original version by Kings of Leon

When you feel down and everything seems so wrong. I know you need time to be alone, just you and your torturing music. That broken-heart, those tears. They need some dramatic effect. Here are some torturing songs you may like.
  1. Adele - Someone Like You
  2. Simple Plan - Astronaut
  3. A Fine Frenzy - Ashes And Wine
  4. Sara Bareilles - Breathe Again
  5. Rihanna - Cry
  6. Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
  7. The Script - If You Ever Come Back
  8. Paramore - My Heart
  9. Lykke Li - Possibility
  10. Coldplay - Fix You
  11. Katy Perry - Thinking of You
I hope these songs can help you to get through any kind of situations ;))

Click The Link Below. Put Some Good Realxing Song And Feel The Magic

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10 Facts About Rain

  1. Rainfall is classified as light if not more than 0.10 inch per hour, and heavy if more than 0.30 inch per hour. 
  2. All precipitation starts as ice or snow crystals at cloud level. 
  3. Freezing rain is rain that freezes as it hits the ground; sleet is frozen ice pellets. 
  4. Rain drops are not shaped like this , they are shaped like this as they fall. 
  5. The umbrella was originally intended for shade from the hot Egyptian sun. 
  6. Raindrops vary in size from 0.02 inch to about .031 inch diameter. 
  7. Big, heavy raindrops can fall at speeds up to 22 miles per hour!
  8. After the rain fall, dirt, weeds, grass will have some typical scent. This compound is called petrichor.
  9. If the droplets of rain is frozen, it won’t be like the normal ice in the freezer. It will turn into a beautiful piece of crystal
  10. And the last fact, the most mysterious one is rain has the ability to hypnotize people to reminisce their memories. And without being able to get the scientific evidence, scientists could only conclude "In the rain, there are songs that can only be heard by those who missed".

December 05, 2011


mmm nothing: THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII...: Friends with benefits don't always remain friends after the benefits run out

Tell me...

How can I move on when Im still in love with you?

What Am I Without Them Probably...No One

Those girls are my best friends from I couldnt count 2 * 3 = 6 until now. Girl with red headband is @windifar and the other is @ulinayunin . We've been friend since seven years. We've been through a lot, sad and good times. We go to the different schools now but God tighten our friendship. I never forget them neither do they. They helped me to be what I am today. I dont know what would I be without them.

December 03, 2011

Great Movie For Weekend Chill

This one may be a comedy but they put some romance too. There Cal Weaver (Steve Carell) gets his wife, Emily (Julianne Moore) want a divorce. She tells him that she has cheated on him. Since that moment Cal begins frequenting a bar night, after night. Talking loudly about his divorce until he attracts  the attention of a young man, Jacob Palmer  (Ryan Gosling). He intends to help him to get over his divorce and start over his life as a single man. Jacob turns him into a womanizer just like himself. He tells all the strategies to attract woman's attention. After several unseccesfull attempts, Cal finally succes in copying Jacob's strategies. He sleeps with 9 different women. Meanwhile Jacob's big move doesnt work out with a girl named Emma (Emma Stone) . And how they work out their own issues?

December 02, 2011

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

The Truth Is..

You don't know what's going to happen tomorrow.

It Needs A Lot of Energy

She is Totally Right !

The Greater Your Capacity to Love, The Greater Your Capacity to Feel The Pain.
- Jennifer Aniston 

It Was You

It was you the only one for me
Wether it was right or wrong you never see
Because in your eyes
I was the only one who set you free

But promises are made to be broken
And something is better left unspoken

We didn't see anything going right
The situation turned out so tight
Then you left and put out the light

Left me in the darkness
I said nothing, I was speechless
Shall I put a smile?
Even you already in a mile?

I know you're gone
All I have to do is move on
With or without you
I have to keep shine on

Goodbye, Almost Lover

I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind.
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine.

November 30, 2011

Things I'm Good At :

  1. Being silly
  2. Fuck Things Up
  3. Eating
  4. Falling in love with the wrong person
  5. Get mad
  6. Not living my live fully
  7. Push people away
  8. Get so emotional
  9. Do nothing
  10. Not making people fall in love with me

mmm nothing: i'm not mad, i just want to know.... why her? why ...

mmm nothing: i'm not mad, i just want to know.... why her? why ...

What She Said...

This What I've Learned in My Life: Headbanging is Crucial. Growing Up is Hard to Do. There's Nothing Wrong With Wearing A Dress.
- Hayley Williams 

God Knows The World Doesn't Need Another Band

Yeah that's what the fans said And I am one of them. Im a parawhore by the way. I fell for them since the music video of Misery Business came out. I was totally blind about the band and then I went sit in front of my computer and browsed about them. It was like they put something into their music so I was instantly fall in love. Here is their wikipedia, if you guys wanna know them

December Wish(es)

  1. Stay Alive
  2. Taste some happiness
  3. Collecting test results with good score on'em
  4. No longer being played
  5. Have a chance to feel love
  6. Go out of the town
  7. Get rid of drama
  8. No more crying in silence
  9. Forget about 'that'
  10. There is nothing that could make me want to go back to December

"Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings"

Greeting to My Teacher : Assalamualaikum Pak El

Hey there, folk, just wanna say hi for the first time. I guess this is my third blog, I already have one but that one is pretty personal, the other one is fail and this one is brand new because this one is meant to be an assignment on my computer subject and I would like to say “hi” too to my teacher who told me to create this blog.
Assalamualaikum, sir and this is it. Thanks for reading.